Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Oh hey, my blog is still here.

(That one time I straightened June's hair, and I realized how old she looked, and decided I probably won't do it again because I got too sad.)

Today I heard my baby's heartbeat for the first time. This lifted my spirits ten-fold. So I decided it's time to blog again.

I heard a few people figured out that I was pregnant just because of lack of blog posts. I don't know why, but that made me really happy.

A lot of people figured it out before I could make one big *SURPRISE* announcement. I'm a terrible liar, so I went ahead and just outed myself at 6 weeks. I seriously wanted to wait until the 12-week mark, but it's difficult to keep it a secret when you look like you want to ralph 22 hours a day. (In case you're wondering, the best times for me are from 2-4pm.)

I've actually typed this post a couple times. Each time I typed it, I made a list of all the terrible things I feel everyday... the nausea, the guilt about not being an energetic mom for June, the frustrations... But I decided that it's probably not worth remembering those things.

Instead I'm trying to focus on the positives... at least for now. I may or may not vent in the near future.

Watching: The Food Network. Since my mom is babysitting me and June most days, I get the pleasure of watching cable TV, and Food Network is always my first choice. I miss cooking more than I thought I would. Since I don't have the energy or stomach for it these days, I'm finding myself living through these chefs and learning as much as I can. And of course, summer veggies are my favorite to cook with, so I hope I feel better soon before it's too late.

Also watching: "Call the Midwife". Has anyone else seen it? It's amazing. It's about a group of midwives housed in a convent, and it takes place in the 1950s in East England. The stories are wonderful and the messages kind of make your heart soar... and I don't describe things like that very often. 

Eating: candy. Lots of it. Enough to make Willy Wonka proud. Normally, I prefer baked goods and ice cream, but oh my, candy is the only cure right now: Skittles, Mike & Ikes, Sour Patch Kids, anything that rots my already sensitive teeth.

Looking forward to: Summer movies. My favorite movies of all time have little or no action in them... but when it comes to seeing movies in the theaters, my FAVORITE movies are cheesy-lines, ridiculous-plotlines, headache-inducing, walking-away-from-an-explosion, action ones. I especially love watching with my family... we're the ones in the theater laughing at all the impossibly absurd stunts and action sequences. There's nothing better in the summer. Someday, I will write an entire blog post about this, unfortunately for you.

Craving: Mexican food. Every. Single. Day. 

I guess not that much has changed.